Today has been a relaxing experience, spent in the company of my wife. I can honestly say there are few things I enjoy as much. Perhaps it's because I am in essence a simple person, by that I mean the things that give me peace are simple ones.
The things that torment me though, those are many and complex. Let's leave them for another time eh? A short time by the Thames river with a thermos of hot chocolate and rolls was by far the highlight of the day. I realize that to most that might seem a touch pedestrian or boring, but these things have always been high on my peace list.
I did have to go into work though, apparently one of the keys has broken or been lost. This turned out to be a good excuse to leave the house and have some time in the night.
While in Tesco I had a peek at all the dark fantasy books for sale, Twilight etc. I really think I could write this kind of fiction without much of a problem. Something prevents me from doing so, my wife thinks it's because I get distracted by other things. Gaming.
She maybe right.
I'm thinking about painting again, thinking. Always thinking and not acting, been this way as long as I can remember.
See this is the thing, my muse is a tormenting cow, she demands I work for an audience. Even if none exists. She also taunts me, a lot. I'll include a mixed media piece I did and committed to video.
Anyway back to my muse, I'm getting very suspicious about her. I have a feeling she is Morrigan The goddess I path work with. If this is the case, things are hard for a reason. Morrigan demands action and swift defining decisions.
Anyway, I have decided that I should commune with Morrigan and see if she will come to me in my dreams, perhaps She can break the block on creation I have.
I hate getting a creative block. I usually only suffer them when I'm told to draw a certain thing, which is weird, considering I'm being told what to draw lol. But it's often difficult to get what you're thinking, or what someone is saying, onto paper.
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